SweetMicga

There are a couple of rather "annoying" things I've realized about myself over the past few days:

1.  Why do I still have the same insecurities that I had when I was 15?  I'm a frickin adult now.  Shouldn't the last 10 years of life experiences have at least made me a tiny bit more secure about things?  Apparently not.  What the hell?  When I was younger, I used to look at adults and think they had everything so together.  So not true.

2.  Why do I keep going back to the same people looking for support?  Years and years of experience should have taught me long ago that those people will never offer the support I'm looking for, but I still look to them for it.  What on earth is wrong with me?  I know they aren't supportive, they've never been supportive.  What the hell am I doing?  Furthermore, when am I finally going to learn that the only person who is ever going to be fully supportive of me is me.  When push comes to shove, the only person who is ever going to look out for me is me.  I know this, so why don't my actions reflect this?  wtf

Okay, I'm done ranting.  Carry on.